Since last year when I took the women to Nicaragua I have wanted to make an open invitation to all of the women at CCF. Mostly because I want everyone in the world to experience what I have but also I have this thing about appearing 'exclusive'. So an invitation to the church seemed like the best thing.
Before the service I made 10 packets of information for anyone interested. Well, I should have made 15. I received a few phone calls that night of women interested. What a cool thing to know that people desire to go and serve!
I received a call on Sunday night from a girl named Jessica that I had never met. She told me she really wanted to go, she had talked to her husband he would support her, but it would be really tough for them financially. I told her I would love to get together and talk more about the trip and we'll see what we can figure out.
Monday night I also talked to a Margie who said, "Katie, I am in. I am going no matter what!" The next day I get online to make her airline reservation - the price had gone up $300!!!!!! What God? I just made a public invitation and NOW the prices go up? Of course I didn't guarantee airfare but really the next day it goes up!!!! Should I wait till the next day? What if it goes up more? I feel sick. I have two women totally ready to join our team and now I have to tell them it's $300 more than yesterday! How do I trust God in this? God what do you want me to do?
Trust me. Christ died for freedom so you can be free. Let go of this and trust me. - that's what I hear.
All day, I feel this weight, a heaviness, I struggled to let go. I really want these 2 women on this trip and now I can't get a hold of them to inform them of this change. That night, Tuesday, finally I talked to Margie who said "I am going", and guess what? She still said, "I am going, buy my ticket"! So I got online and purchased that ticket before it went up again. There was a sense of relief, at least it wouldn't stop her.
That night Jessica called to change our meeting time for the next day and I told her of the change in airfare. I told her we should still meet and who know what God might do, now or in the future.
The next day right before our meeting I decided to look at airfare one more time, really so I could tell her the exact amount. Guess what? It was back down!!!! Now I was really sick. I had purchased Margie's ticket on this one day that prices went up - what a dummy. But on the other hand praise God - now Jessica can go. I felt like God was telling me to let go and receive this blessing, but what a funny thing when it seemed like I had made a foolish choice for Margie.
My meeting with Jessica went great! She was thrilled with the airfare and so excited for the trip. After our time together I raced home to purchase her ticket. All I could think was these two women are perfect additions to our team, thank you Lord.
Later that day, out of curiosity and because I am always checking prices for our summer trip, I looked one more time at airfare. You will never believe it, prices were back up! Weird? No I don't think so, I think it was totally God putting together this group of women that will serve Him and bring glory to His name in Nicaragua. And He wants all the glory even when it's just about airfare.
My lesson: let go. As much as I think I am in control of this trip - I am not. I guess maybe God wants to pry my fingers off this one so when it comes to the bigger things I will freely let go and be led.
"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." Ephesians3:20,21
ps - airfare is still up today.
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